Off The Wall

Lots of things going on... Life is so crazy busy at this point, but it's getting better day by day. I've got a lot of things worked out with my classes and things, so I think it's going to be a much better semester.

I've made a positive decision for my life. Or at least what I feel is a positive decision. I'm going to start trying to write some music. I'm going to devote my Tuesday/Thursdays and weekends to not only studying, but also to writing. I don't know... I just keep getting this feeling that that's something I need to be doing with my life. I'm going to be getting some stuff together and trying to get in contact with some Christian record labels. (Please don't laugh...) I know it sounds like a HUGE dream and something that seems out of reach, but I just have to believe in what I'm doing and go for it. I just really feel like I'm being called to do this. I absolutely love singing in church and praising my God. I mean even today just singing hymns in the choir I was completely happy and I knew that was what I needed to be doing.

This is something I'm really nervous about. I have NEVER seriously thought about something like this in a very long time. And I know I'm not the best at playing musical instruments, so that makes it kind of hard. I mean, I pretty much have the guitar down except I'm not very quick and my strumming's not the best, but I do pretty well. The piano is a completely different story. I took piano lessons for about 5 years and don't remember anything. I can pick things out on the piano and play chords and stuff, but playing the right hand and left hand at the same time is just something I haven't gotten a handle on yet. I've written 2 songs in the past. Not Christian songs, but I think they're ok. All I have down on paper are my lyrics, but I can hear the tune and stuff in my head when I look at them. I just need to get that down on paper.

Well... I guess all I can say is just be praying for me in this decision with my life and just that God's will is done. I just want Him to be pleased with me and say "Well done." when I get to heaven. I love you all. :)